"i no longer feel the same way i felt for you"

i will  finally take some advice from a friend and write a blog that i will keep for myself. today is as well of a day to finally start it. March 8, 2010, the very first day i got to hang out with rena. ever since then i have fallen in love with this girl. five months has gone by and today marks the day where my heart is broken beyond repair. these past few days, ive been pouring my heart out to her and yet the conclusion seems unchanged. she told me today that not only has her mind been set, but she no longer feels the same way that she use to feel. she no longer want the daily phone calls, no longer have the same feelings that we developed. it hurts so much because i have never felt this way about anyone and finally someone like her comes by and i give it everything i got. unfortunately, it is too late for her to hear the stuff i have to say. i havent given up the past two weeks since she ended it and to this day i still have not given up even if i tell her im gonna stop trying. im lying to her and to myself. but the fact is, i will no longer pursue her and from this day on i dont even know if i can talk to her anymore. the future can not be predicted, and maybe sometime in the future things will change, but she seems certain that as of right now, there is no future between us. i cant believe i loved this girl so much that she was my motivation to come all the way back to buffalo just to be closer with her. i saw a future with her for as long as i remember, but i just waited too long to tell her the truth. i feel like such a failure. what can i do if the one i love doesnt feel the same way? all i can do is.... nothing. i dont know what to do. some people will say, "i wish i can tell this stuff to the significant other". well i've have literally told her EVERYTHING i had in my mind and she did not nudge. maybe i love her so much because i like the way she is so hardheaded like me. it doesnt matter now because i gave it my all and in the end, as all summers end, its over just like that.