voice mail

what the hell am i doing... i just cant bare to not attempt to talk to her.. i am ultimate fail. so today i text her telling her i liked her fb link and she does not text back at all. she does not respond to my im later tonight and i just called her twice just to get to voice mail. wtf is wrong with me. maybe she got my text from last night saying that im not talking to her because i dont want to be persistent. and now she is not talking to me because she thinks its the right thing to do. then why the hell am i trying to talk to her nonstop... i basically dug my own grave. is she mad at me for ignoring her the other night? but why wud she be mad at me if she tells me that she doesnt feel the same way as she use to feel. fml to the max. it sucks to take back what i tried to do but its just so hard to do that if deep down i know i dont want to stop talking to her. i continuously have these crazy thoughts about being able to see her. and i even remember waking up this morning from a dream that has to do with her texting me back from last night. that is just pathetic... never have i ever been this crazy about anyone and i deny that it is because im chasing after her because i got turned down. ive been chasing after her since day one and to do otherwise is just so hard. the choice between talking and not talking to her is apparent, and i know that i want to choose to talk to her.