days into weeks into months

weekends are good mind erasers. But its monday now and when i look back on the weekend, all i can think is that she wasn't there with me. Every night when i go home no matter how much fun i had during the day, i can only feel sad, sad that she is no longer in my life. And every morning when i wake up, it just feels so empty. That i cant even text her good morning. Cant even say i love you anymore. These past few weeks, not for a second can i not think about what she might be doing or how she might be feeling. As the weeks keep going by, she will probably forget me more and more and maybe i will miss her less and less as well. but that is not what i want. I dont want to think that in a few months i will just be a closed chapter in her life. I know i will not miss her less in the up coming days and i for sure know that she will not just be another chapter. Even if i do start dating the future, she will be coming the one that i will always think as the one for got away. If only i showed her how much i appreciated her before it got to this point. If only i could show her everyday that she meant the world to me. Im going to keep this one short and just say, i still miss her and its all types of terrible.