holding on to your dearest

i want to tell her how special she is. i wish she only still knew that she meant the world to me. i could have just expressed how i feel about her every time i see her but instead i dont say anything and i realize that must be terrible to think that your boyfriend doesnt even notice you. But i notice her everyday and she is still the most beautiful girl i have ever met. I remember having a conversation with her telling her that in the beginning and she told me that she doesnt think herself is that pretty but to me, she honestly was the most beautiful person i have ever laid my eyes on. so what happened. i still love her so much and think about her constantly. if only she believed in second chances. its so hard to just let the love of your life walk away, and here becoming further and further distant. the more i try to win her back the more i feel like she will avoid me. she asked me to give her space and i know i must respect that but space is what she wants and what i want is to just have another chance to hold her and kiss her and tell her that she deserves the best and i made many mistakes in the past but my eyes are open that she is the best and all i want is to treat her that way. aside from the enormous foot print she put in my heart, she was also my purpose, my goal, and my life. i wish i could have realized this sooner but we all hear that if someone that special walks into your life, you better not let them go. well i dont want to let her go. i want to cherish her and make her feel loved again and make sure that she knows everyday that if theres one thing that is on my mind, it is to make her happy because her happiness is my happiness.